First Week of Lent
Well so far so good with the discipline in my life! It was been an extremely hard emotional week for me. I've always said life would be easy if we didn't have emotions but then we wouldn't know the joys along with the sorrows. I'm feeling like I am in the desert and no safe place to go.
I'm restless and on edge.....the emotional desert! No place to lie my head....life seems out of my control and it is! I continue to pray for a specific need and it seems God is not hearing me. This so reminds me of my single years wanting the Lord to bring me a husband and wondering WHY he wasn't! The anger and frustration, the hurt thinking our Lord did not hear my prayers.
When will I let go? When will I really surrendor to the Lord? What is he asking of me? Am I doing his will? My desire to do the chastity message does not go away, my restlessness with my current job does not go away. Lord what do you want? Please speak to me and guide me!
Oh ya Valentine's day! Well I'm home with a very soar throat and headache. I started feeling so akward at work yesterday like my head was not attached to my body. And then I had to teach and It was hard to focus and I was loosing my voice! I've never liked Valentine's day. When I was single it was one of the hardest holidays. It was a reminder that I had no one special in my life. Now that I'm married it's really no big deal! I have my sweat heart all year not just on one day of the year.
For all you single ladies my heart goes out to you! Believe me I know your pain and heart ache
wanting that "one" special someone in your life! My advice is to grow as a person, develop interests, grow in HOLINESS. Spend time with our Lord in front of the Blessed Sacrament. And when you talk with our Lord don't hold anything back.............he knows your pain and he
cares! LIFE is not easy! One of my favorite quotes come from the first lines of Scott Peck's
book, "The Road Less traveled": "Life is Difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest
truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly konw that life is difficult--once we truly understand and accept it--then life is no longer difficult.
Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult not longer matters."
OK I admit I don't want to accept this! The child within me screams "this isn't fair! I don't
like it!" I'm 49 years old when am I going to grow up oh Lord? We look at the lives of the Saints they all had heart ache and very difficult things in their life. It made them who they are!
Look at St.Theresa , look at Blessed Mother Teresa. Look at our LORD! Look how he sufferd!
Beaten and humiliated all for us: Take courage from the Word of God Hebres 12:1-14
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us rid ourselves of every burden and sin that clings to us 2 and persevere in running the race that lies before us
2
while keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus, the leader and perfecter of faith. For the sake of the joy that lay before him he endured the cross, despising its shame, and has taken his seat at the right of the throne of God.
3
Consider how he endured such opposition from sinners, in order that you may not grow weary and lose heart.
4
In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding blood.
5
You have also forgotten the exhortation addressed to you as sons: "My son, do not disdain the discipline of the Lord or lose heart when reproved by him;
6
for whom the Lord loves, he disciplines; he scourges every son he acknowledges."
7
Endure your trials as "discipline"; God treats you as sons. For what "son" is there whom his father does not discipline?
8
If you are without discipline, in which all have shared, you are not sons but bastards.
9
Besides this, we have had our earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them. Should we not (then) submit all the more to the Father of spirits and live?
10
They disciplined us for a short time as seemed right to them, but he does so for our benefit, in order that we may share his holiness.
11
At the time, all discipline seems a cause not for joy but for pain, yet later it brings the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who are trained by it.
12
So strengthen your drooping hands and your weak knees.
13
Make straight paths for your feet, that what is lame may not be dislocated but healed.
14
Strive for peace with everyone, and for that holiness without which no one will see the Lord.
Ok Lord once again I will try to submit to your discipline instead of acting like a little girl who cries, whey me?
I'm restless and on edge.....the emotional desert! No place to lie my head....life seems out of my control and it is! I continue to pray for a specific need and it seems God is not hearing me. This so reminds me of my single years wanting the Lord to bring me a husband and wondering WHY he wasn't! The anger and frustration, the hurt thinking our Lord did not hear my prayers.
When will I let go? When will I really surrendor to the Lord? What is he asking of me? Am I doing his will? My desire to do the chastity message does not go away, my restlessness with my current job does not go away. Lord what do you want? Please speak to me and guide me!
Oh ya Valentine's day! Well I'm home with a very soar throat and headache. I started feeling so akward at work yesterday like my head was not attached to my body. And then I had to teach and It was hard to focus and I was loosing my voice! I've never liked Valentine's day. When I was single it was one of the hardest holidays. It was a reminder that I had no one special in my life. Now that I'm married it's really no big deal! I have my sweat heart all year not just on one day of the year.
For all you single ladies my heart goes out to you! Believe me I know your pain and heart ache
wanting that "one" special someone in your life! My advice is to grow as a person, develop interests, grow in HOLINESS. Spend time with our Lord in front of the Blessed Sacrament. And when you talk with our Lord don't hold anything back.............he knows your pain and he
cares! LIFE is not easy! One of my favorite quotes come from the first lines of Scott Peck's
book, "The Road Less traveled": "Life is Difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest
truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly konw that life is difficult--once we truly understand and accept it--then life is no longer difficult.
Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult not longer matters."
OK I admit I don't want to accept this! The child within me screams "this isn't fair! I don't
like it!" I'm 49 years old when am I going to grow up oh Lord? We look at the lives of the Saints they all had heart ache and very difficult things in their life. It made them who they are!
Look at St.Theresa , look at Blessed Mother Teresa. Look at our LORD! Look how he sufferd!
Beaten and humiliated all for us: Take courage from the Word of God Hebres 12:1-14
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us rid ourselves of every burden and sin that clings to us 2 and persevere in running the race that lies before us
2
while keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus, the leader and perfecter of faith. For the sake of the joy that lay before him he endured the cross, despising its shame, and has taken his seat at the right of the throne of God.
3
Consider how he endured such opposition from sinners, in order that you may not grow weary and lose heart.
4
In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding blood.
5
You have also forgotten the exhortation addressed to you as sons: "My son, do not disdain the discipline of the Lord or lose heart when reproved by him;
6
for whom the Lord loves, he disciplines; he scourges every son he acknowledges."
7
Endure your trials as "discipline"; God treats you as sons. For what "son" is there whom his father does not discipline?
8
If you are without discipline, in which all have shared, you are not sons but bastards.
9
Besides this, we have had our earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them. Should we not (then) submit all the more to the Father of spirits and live?
10
They disciplined us for a short time as seemed right to them, but he does so for our benefit, in order that we may share his holiness.
11
At the time, all discipline seems a cause not for joy but for pain, yet later it brings the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who are trained by it.
12
So strengthen your drooping hands and your weak knees.
13
Make straight paths for your feet, that what is lame may not be dislocated but healed.
14
Strive for peace with everyone, and for that holiness without which no one will see the Lord.
Ok Lord once again I will try to submit to your discipline instead of acting like a little girl who cries, whey me?
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